2nd time's charm?

So here we go again. Monday we have our follow-up appointment to our 1st failed IVF Cycle. We have one more little BB quaility frozen Embrbaby so fingers crossed we can start this soon and get our dream in 2019.

I must admit that my faith in IVF has gone slightly since our negative news, but I think thats becasue first timers go in all positive/ all shiny new and "Oh yeah it will work first time for us!" and dont realise the work, emotion and exhausting steps put into it at the time.

As we have our one frozen fella/lady on ice we dont have to go through all the injections and scans again, which is a major plus, but I dont know what the protocal for this one is so this is another thing I have to learn about.

One thing that has happened in the last week is that I have found out that friends are pregnant or given birth. The usual thing i find is that I am not upset or angry at them like I hear so much about, but I am just jealous. its not their issues or fault, its me and my emotions towards it. I dont have the right to stop them being excited and overjoyed, so I choose and let myself join in with the joy as well. Why not its a miracle thing having a child. Watching the video of my friends baby moving around, mooning them, seeing the spine and feet and its only 17 weeks, its amazing!!!

One day i hope to show people the same thing and have them over the moon for us. xx

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