By the hairs of my Chinny Chin Chin

Tis isolation is making me notice more about myself physically than ever before. I seem to be really having time to look in the mirror and be more self critical than ever!! It's not good!

So I have the obvious things- roots, bad nails, needing a haircut, getting tubby from the tons of cake and "treats" etc.

But the one thing i have noticed and obsessed about more is the hair/fuzz on my face since we started IVF and all the hormones. When i was pregnant this happened too! Well its just got worse and wont bugger off!

I have plucked, tugged and ignored but no more! One thing this Corona has given me is time to look at ways to get rid of this bearded lady image in my head.

And today I got it. A fuzz remover for ladies. I mean its advertised as "handbag size" and made me wonder, who buzzes their face and then it grows so fast the next day they need to carry it everywhere?! haha but hey ill give it a go.

I went for the Binefia Rechargeable Facial Hair remover. It was £17.99 and with mixed reviews, but all reviews are mixed so i gave it a whirl. SO first go... I mean i can feel stubbly bits and might need another going over but i feel smoother and less like my other half!

I have fears though.. what if they grow back thick and dark? I know its just trimmed them back so this shouldnt but WHAT IF IT DOES!? I'll look like a goat!? Oh god or my old teacher with a dark curl on the chin.

Any way, the more I have read into the cause the more I see that woman shouldnt ignore these hairs on their face. Its actually a good indecator that you have infertility issues. Due to all the hormone imbalancing or working more this is a symptom to look out for (like us ladies dont have enough self consious things to look out for and feel shit about!?)

IVF has made me look 10 years older, feel it too, and feel so un attractive to my other half or just for me. I have never had confidence in myself but when i made an effort I used to feel like it was kinda worth it and have a ping of self love. Now,

nothing. I dont feel in the slightest attractive and I want this to be sorted asap or at least all this IVF, baby loss, and fuck load of hormones to be worth it.

SO, I will update on my billy goat beard in a few days or a week and let you know if

I am now changing my name to Harold and going to tell Steven he is now with a sexy man! ;)